Liquid ambien

Many of you don't know this, but I suffer from anxiety and panic attacks. Over the last few weeks, going to sleep has been a daunting endeavor. As soon as I get comfortable, my mind and body wage war against each other. This happens in random spurts from time to time. It usually lasts a few weeks to a few months. I usually suffer through trying everything I can without resorting to medicine. I use ocean wave music, lavender, rescue remedy, meditation, and sometimes A even has to pound on my back to help me calm down.

 

Sometimes nothing works. 

This is one of those weeks. 

So as I lay down last night, feeling a fit coming on, I remembered a pin I saw briefly the other day: liquid ambien.

 

I dismissed it initially because I know people who take ambien and they become nut jobs on that stuff. One friend buys random infomercial products and has no idea until the purchases show up at her door weeks later! 

Being in my awful state, I was willing to try anything. I looked it up and was happily surprised that I had all the oils needed. I quickly ran to the kitchen and made this concoction. I applied it behind my ears and at the base of my skull and laid back down. 

With my eyes closed, I could feel a difference almost immediately. My thoughts were clear.  I felt as if synapses were firing that hadn't been. It was almost trippy: I could see colors flashing. Imagine a broken down fair and someone finally turns on the generator after years of decay and the lights sputter at first before blazing back to their intended glory. 

Yeah. It was kind of like that. 

 This will be my new nightly routine. 

Thanks to Brandi King for this little goldmine. 

Now for the recipe:

I put it in a roll on bottle for easy application.